Some thoughts

Startup Week has wrapped. It was another great event. The talks and people always open my mind, which I love. VR was a huge hit at this year’s event, as were drones. These startups are always about pioneering, and so you end up meeting some really cool people at these events.

I really enjoying going to events. There a lot of fun and I get a ton of value out of them. And I enjoy planning events. It’s also a lot of fun and gratifying when you see people making connections. And the events I have been planning for the last four years have been cannabis events – trade shows, competitions, VIP dinners, award shows, conferences, and more. It has been a lot of fun. I’ve thoroughly enjoyed it. It’s been hard, and it’s been stressful, but I’ve learned a lot about running a business and organizing events.

Recently, I’ve been looking at getting a job. We’ve lost money on our last few events; like a lot of money. We’ve never taken debt against our company. So when we lost money it was our money. And I can’t keep losing money. So I have been thinking about getting a job. Getting a job. I’ve been going back-and-forth about getting a job for like two years. It’s been the biggest struggle in my life. “What I’m I going to do for money?” I ask myself this question over and over again so many times a day. I want to own my own business. I want to make a million dollars. I’ve just lost so much confidence over the last two years that I don’t know that I even believe I can make a million dollars per year running my own business.

So, this weekend I applied for like 10 jobs, and today two of them reached out to me for interviews. One of them is mortgages, which is pretty much a slam dunk if I want it. And the other is for a digital marketing firm. And so it makes my decision real now. Like, real real. I’ve got job opportunities. Do I want to accept a job or do I want to be an entrepreneur? Another way of looking at it, do I want to get a job and help somebody else’s dream come true and help them make a million dollars or do I wanna continue to struggle as an entrepreneur?

To be continued…